No really they do.. when you realize you aren't where you want to be in life. Maybe in relationships, career, or location, or all three. I love being with my family but I hate the drama of this small town. I am happy being single as I know the right guy is out there but I hate seeing that everyone else has found the right person and is starting their families. I loved my job as a banquet supervisor but I hate all the politics that is involved here. And for some reason or another I hated bartending where I was. When I thought I loved it.... still trying to figure that one out.
Still talking to the guy though I am taking it slow. He thinks I am perfect when I am giving him every reason to back out. I tell him I am a mess and I am just too old and we are in different phases of our lives. He doesn't seem to care..
Making lists seems to help deal with the anxiety but it takes a lot for me to accomplish even one thing. I have no motivation. Sunny warm days help but then all I want to do is sit outside and read. Inside I just want emerge myself into television to forget about real life. I wish there was an easy way to just disappear.
I can't go much longer without working so I need to figure something out. But I do know I don't want to be here. I'm over this place.
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